But one class consistently fails to gather students after three years on the schedule, and that is my weekly zazen class. No matter what, that class is always sparsely if ever attended.
It's not that people don't try it, they do, but no one has continued to come for more than a few weeks. Ever.
And I know it's not personal, because I have seen the same thing across zen centers and groups all over the world. I can't tell you how many times I've found a zen center in a town I've visited, gone to sit, and been the only other person besides the leader. It's a pretty sad state of affairs.
Brad Warner always quips that if just one percent of the people in LA who've bought his books actually came to his zazen sessions he'd have the place full to the rafters. What is it about zazen that makes it so hard to get people to show up? It's not like we're asking people for money or to do anything besides just sit.
I think the root of the problem is that zazen is fundamentally different from almost everything else we do in a day. It's the only time in your life you are actually asked to do nothing.
This freaks people out to no end. "What do you mean do nothing? Surely you do something?"
Nope, you just sit there and be. And it's incredibly uncomfortable. It's not a territory that we have much experience in. It's like being invited to a party where you don't know anyone. It could be a great party, but you make excuses and skip it out of the fear that there will be some awkward moments.
For the first few years, zazen is awkward. There's no discernible progress, little reward, and it kind of hurts your back. Almost any other activity would start to pay off after a few weeks; you can play your first song, you can do a new move, you can create a piece of art, etc...
But zazen doesn't work like that. Primarily because the more you strive the less progress you make. There really is nothing like it. Perseverance is important to get on the cushion, but once you're there you have to stop persevering. This drives type As crazy and they give up soon.
That leaves the laid back people, and the truth of the matter is that they usually can't be bothered. They don't feel that drive for self-betterment that gets them through the door of a zazen class week after week. There are a lot more relaxing things to do than zazen.
So I'm not surprised that it's so unpopular. But I am disappointed that more people don't find it as interesting as I do. From the first time I did zazen, I recognized that it was a totally different way to use (or not use) my mind. Zen meditation was a totally new way to experience the world and to find how I fit into it.
The history of zen is filled with hermits and old masters who retire to the mountains to finish out their years in solitude. Sometimes I have the same dream. Nobody cares about practicing zen, so why am I running around trying to get people into it? Why not just look out for number one? Who appointed me the zazen cheerleader anyway?
I'm kind of joking but kind of not. It's a sad thing to leave a single person zazen class and pass bars that are packed. Or see gyms full of people sweating and grunting to get their bodies in line without spending a second on their mental fitness.
It just seems like everything is upside down sometimes.
Then again we are living on a ball floating in the middle of cold empty space. That's pretty weird too.
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Hey Patrick,
I like the "...living on a ball floating in cold dark space..." comment. Whenever I find myself thinking how bizarre it would be if death meant the end of my consciousness, I think, "hey, how was my consciousness doing back in 1722?". The fact that I didn't exist then doesn't seem at all disconcerting. So, why get all worked up about 2150?
So, zazen promotion...I think it would help if someone like yourself tried to describe what happens after a few years of sitting on your ass - working really 'hard'/'not-hard' at thinking about absolutely nothing. In your Zazen video, you have a funny little scene where you glow or something and it looks like your having an audience with a being of light or some shit. So, is it like that? Do you feel rested, smarter, calmer, sillier, fuller, fatter, what?
Jesus Patrick, you're right. People hate zazen so much they won't even comment on a post about it! I feel so damn alone....just me and my zafu.
Yes. Yes yes yes. I'm doing the Tricycle 90 day meditation challenge and was surprised by the low response to invitations sent out on Facebook. (OK maybe I wasn't that surprised - posting up crap about Japanese chewing gum that enhances the breasts is sooo much easier). I saw your video on sitting zazen a couple of years ago when I was starting to sit and thought it might be useful to post up on the Tricycle Facebook site and just saw your website and so on. Enjoyed it. Going to sit now.
Kathryn Johnston
Patrick-
Help me out here, what does this say?
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Thanks. It is much appreciated.
I think I got this one. I've been sitting zazen daily for years, and I'm still reluctant to go to the zendo because THREE periods of 25-35 minutes of sitting plus some walking is just too much for me.
Also, unless there's a dharma talk, I'm not super psyched to hop on the subway, travel to a strange place, and pay money to sit.
I go occasionally, but just generally find the return on investment not worth it. When I find my teacher, it will be a different story but in the meantime, you'll find me in my living room.
Hey Patrick,
I feel your pain. Our little ZaZen group here in Davenport, IA only has a handful of folks. However, I must say, I don't think your video could be any better. You make the zazen very appealing. Even if no one else joins us for meditation, we benefit from it. Keep on my friend.
Hi, Patrick,
Thanks for the nice writing, a pleasure to read. Here's another theory for you: people don't like zazen because it's uncomfortable for them to sit the posture, and although they see people who have no problem with the posture, none of those people can explain how it's done.
I have something I wrote in my effort to learn to sit the lotus without having my legs go to sleep. It's not really about the lotus, mostly, but I find it useful anyway. It's about zazen:
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an unauthorized and incomplete guide to zazen
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hope that works, if not you can google the key words.
it's a matter of health, that's my conclusion; at some point an end of suffering becomes necessary, and zazen allows us to recogize that fairly easily. Not that the rest of our life won't bring it around, if we don't have the good fortune to find zazen.
yours,
Mark Foote
who needs popularity ?
Boddidharma the first patriach very reluctantly took a student, becuase he knew presumably how difficuilt sustained "strong or intense" Zazen practice is.
Personally i feel that without "body-work and breathe work" such that theer is a sense of re- energization , coupled may be with a attempt at slow mindfullness ie whilst walking etc.
Pure Zazen as it was originally taught is simply impossible, the ego mind rebels, it's a bit like confronting the self with a sense of utter desolation, immanent disaster or deathe... we do NOT want this, let alone do we want to sit still with the energies that arise and allow these to intensify whilst remaining still, focussed and aware.
Yet every so often inspiring roshis do arise and then no advertisements are neceesary.
So for "me" it is simply that, just sit regularly with great determination, until ....
patrick,
what lovely opportunities you have had to be the only one with a said teacher. i live in west virginia and there are pretty much no buddhist here.. especially zazen practitioners. i always sit by myself up in my room with my pillow for my bottom and a blank wall for staring. if i had a a teacher or group to meet and practice with, i wouldn't know what to do with myself. so i am forced to weed through the things on the internet and books for some sort of teaching. your youtube video on zazen is very fulfilling and helpful. also never give up on that class. if you have one student or even just yourself you are doing good, and everyone/thing meditates when you do. i feel that my situation (being the only buddhist i know) hurts me but also helps me just as much. so what does all this get to?? i'd love to come to one of your classes and sit. there are new people all the time who want to enjoy this great practice of zazen, and you never know where (i am a great example!)
and who could have picked a better cheerleader? lol just kidding; but seriously..
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